phreshmilk

movement

2007-01-30T20:28:00.000+08:00

HTTP://PHRESHMILK.LIVEJOURNAL.COM

move it, BAISH!

will be there for the mean time (:

2007-01-21T21:35:00.000+08:00

THE MERE THOUGHT OF HAVING TO WORK IN A PLACE
THATS SO TOTALLY BELOW WHAT U HAVE EXPECTED SEEMS
A LIL MIND BOGGLING AND A TOTAL TURN OFF IF YOU
TRY T THINK KINKY IN HOPES OF TRYING T SAVE URE
MOOD .THAT U WILL AT LEAST EARN 5 BUCKS AN
HOUR AND 10 BUCKS ON PUBLIC HOLIDAYS!

CAN I WORK IN A BAR? OR.. IN A PUB?
OR.. ANYWHERE BUT THERE?

IM PICKY!

oh, now the uncle and THE AUNTY KNOWS!
the aunty also happens t know cuz she reads my blog.
how funny isat? ok, not so funny.

personal rants for tday.. well..
i am having issues with money and when i start the "job"
soon.. i cant be as flexible as i used to. that means if i
want to see the men in my life.. (ala dad, arwin, yy and bros)
id have t see them on off days. STUPID!
and i have t finish my la salle port folio asap so that
i can feel much better abt my future...and.. uh....
gym. HOW AM I GONNA GYM? bugger la.....

plus my dad and i arnt getting along very well..
as usual. he thinks that all i want from him is money..
and that im rebelious and unappreciative.
the warped cycle just keeps on repeating itself..
he thinks im this.. negetive home envt.. i go out of
the house to spend positive time with friends.. dad
thinks im "wild" then later he thinks im this..
more negetive home envt. or.. if i stay in.. he gets
grumpy.. negetive envt.. i wud wanna go out...

AHYAH. SAME SHIT! even when i talked t arwin..
and he gave me some-what-sane advice abt giving in to
parents because they raised u.. sacrifice.. just basically
giving in JUST BECAUSE.. and i did.. but dad is still
going psycho on me.

what i want right now is a job.. (thats why im desperate
enough to get that stupid job) so that i can earn my own
money and do as i want with it. give some to gramps
even tho things aint going to well with them
and some to my dad.. EVEN THO THINGS ARNT GOING
TOO WELL EITHER.. and alot of it for myself.

fucking irritating -.-
might as well just stay at home.. use ure allowance money
and not work. go jogging. and yada yada. but noo.. this is
the price i have t pay for being the "ELDEST" and for going
out alot (i deserved to have fun cuz i studied so fuckn
hard for Os.. but dad wont understand)

whatever happened to the slogan,
STUDY HARD AND PLAY HARD?

p.s.
watched pans labrynth(sp?) with
arwin and yy on fri and went t
queensway with kabi and yy tday.
stupid yy pissed me off.. jerk -.-

THE UNCLE KNOWS!

2007-01-18T16:17:00.000+08:00

[the soundbelow: I'll be - goo goo dolls]

The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
Emeralds from mountains thrust towards the sky
Never revealing their depth

Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that
hang from above

I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

haha.
everytime u want smth t be kept secret...
thing is.. it dsnt stay a secret for long.

in that case..we should do things the opposite
way. tell everyone the god damned secret!
WEEEEE!!

went out with arwin to suntec yesterday.
we're running out of places to "hang out" alr.
sad thing singapore's sucha doozy. ):

but despite all that, yesterday was really beautiful.
infact, it was perfect! the skies were blue.. grass
was the right shade of green.. and the lighting was
ideal to take beautiful pictures in.

come come, i show you. :D

yep. roamed arnd here and there.. pretty much
bummed out for the entire day. while baby had to
"study" for his test. yep. that resulted into a fun game
of WHATS-THAT-SIGN across the road game.
MISTER-KNOW-IT-ALL however, sucked at it.

OH, AND WE SAW A RAINBOW (:

B-E-A-yooo teee fool, me likey.
i was super happy yesterday la.. apart from
the fact that now my uncle knows abt us.
and uh.. ya. THE END!

oh, kinda forgot.. went out with lynn on tuesday
with felix. yep. was supposed to go shopping.. turned
out to be WINDOW shopping instead. yea.. i want
that green top in forever 21. i wish i had more
money.. and a job... and.. an awesome figure.
bummer, i'll get it eventually :P

ciao lovelies!

2007-01-12T17:18:00.000+08:00

its been awhile since ive wrote a really
heartfelt entry but i dont think any are
gonna come any time soon.

feeling sorta numb and the rain isnt helping
either. weird thing abt me and my relationship
with rain (not rain the singer, tho id love to
have a relationship with him) is that i LOVE
to get soaked from head to toe when i walk in
the rain.. (yes, soaked from head to toe even
by RaiN~`~`HeeHee! ahlianisms)

anyyywayyyy, rain t me is comforting in some
psychological..spiritual..sense. bit like
comfort food. HAHA

speaking of food. arwin, yy and KABI MY BEST
PLAYBOY/MATE EVER EVER EVERRRRRRRR went out
with me t go give yy a make over.. and boy did
he turn out so..sexy? yes.. believe it girls.
WONG TO THE YING YONG WAS SEXY, FOR THE FIRST
TIME TOO I MIGHT ADD! ok, back to food. the
entire days entre revolved arnd chickin. lunch
was KFC and dinner was CHIKIN RICE, hynanese
if thats how u spell it. (:

oh. and kabi was being kabi that day showing us
that TUITION teacher in chinese can have a whole
other meaning.

BU SI LAO SHE ( pronounced as pussy-lao-se )

haha! yes! im easily amused!
what happened after the ride from the train
however.. wasnt so nice. mehhh..bite me!

and now.. for the long awaited beach pics (:

update

i hate family fights and how they make me
feel after that..how my family looks at me.
heh

2007-01-10T14:54:00.000+08:00

[the soundbelow: Save it for sunrise - something to remember]

Its january.. A new year.. New Month.
and i still hvnt gotten a job.. and
true to popular belief ..YES,
its because im picky and theres no
rush to find a job! im all for the
experience and not the money..yet. na'mean?

i wanna be a barista.. or in forever 21
or...AHYAHHH!!!! so fucking sad pls.
apart from being jobless.. i also have to
lose weight. ALL MY GYM BUDDIES ALL GOT
JOB THEN I DONT HAVE, FUNNY AH? i think
its some form of torture when u cant
do what u want with ure friends.

best to find a job and make more new friends!
right right?

OH OH. and im not yet done with my portfolio.
did the sketches for 5 pieces alr and boy
do i feel...whats that word... majorly burned
out from thinking too much.

been tanning and slacking too much also.. badd
baddd badd idea.. and i miss arwin ):
cuz he makes my heart GO.. WHOAAA O WHOAAA O!!!

ok bye

2007-01-07T10:47:00.000+08:00

WELCOME BACK TO SCHOOL, BITCHES!

i knw this post is really really late,
but that makes it similar to all my other
posts (:

i have issues with being early.

oh..
and ive been to the beach way too many
times that im "tanned".. more like BURNT
and red but yeah.. it'sall good.

okok
will post pics when im not so..lazy

2007-01-04T01:11:00.000+08:00

GUTENTAG!
(isat how u spell it)

went "tanning" tday. sorta.
cuz the sun bailed on us... well..
actually it was a beautiful day cuz
the sun was just nice and it wasnt
soo god damn warm...(which was
ideal for like..r.o.c-ing.. we ended
up doing that anyway)

went out with yy, arwin and lynn..
who.. was SO GOD DAMN LATE. frikin hell.
but thank god that didnt spoiled the day
cuz we ended up bastarding yy with lynn
and they did the same to us in return. ):

but arwin and lynn had to leave early..
so me and yy ended up watching a movie.
and met up with LAILA, DENISE AND A NEW GIRL
NAMED CELINE. hmmm..fun fun.
also visited shida at starbucks and got
ourselves drinks on the house. shida is awesome!
THANK YOU PLXXXX!!!

ohoh. and chekc this bird out..
it was sitting down watching people eat

AH HAH. OK.
GOOD DAY!

2006-12-31T00:12:00.000+08:00

SALUT!

went out with ilyana, nashy poo and azmil
today. YAYY! we wore matching outfits by
accident la.. haha. annash and ily wore white
and me and azmil wore black.

we looked like OREOS! YAYY!

okok. nuffnuff. bye!
see you next year!

2006-12-28T01:08:00.000+08:00

merry belated christmas people.
im so.. unelated..

sorta.

my cousins and i hardly ever communicate.
and that fuckn sucks in my opinion..
so much so that we know NUTS abt each other
and we still judge each other through first
impressions on christmas day.

i love family.. but when is that
word ever gonna mean anything?

kk. on the upside..
say hello to ARWIN. HE STUDYING BEAR!

YAYY!

2006-12-23T00:36:00.000+08:00

TDAY WAS A TOTAL WASTE OF MAKE UP
OUT FITS, PERFUME AND ENERGY!!!!

its worth an URGHHHH and a million other swear words!

but on the upside...
i met up with erika SHIMADA.
who.. was so absolutely fun to be with.
yes please k thnx!

(:

met up and she was with a fellow chinoy.
we.. more like she... had lunch... tried t find
SAM in starbucks wisma.. and tried t find
bryan biznatch in sisley paragon.

BUT NOPE.

BOTH OFF DAY.

THEN HORRRRR HORRRR HORRRRRR

ARWIN BAILED ON ME LA...SO NO DATE ALR.
DAMN MOTHER OF MUTHU SAMI GURPAL AND
PUNANIS!!!!

damn suay. worst was when i called every
guy DATEABLE out, and they were all UNAVAILABLE.
STUPID CAN! DAMN STUPID! so anyways...
erika tried t bring egan out.. but too bad. she had t leave.
so i ended up being with amela and ilyana....
amela left early.. soo....whole story short.

the day ended with ilyana accompanying me..
and me flirting with starbucks people, with he bin and
i made friends with a cute elderly couple
named hans and marlin. SO CUTE PLS!
i like ;)

eh... my phone went psycho on me.

shit happens.. like what raj always says..
and good shit rarely happens.
life's a bitch and you marry one.

pretty much sums up everything... eh.
i still want my date ok? ):

will upload pictures tmr.
k thnx bye hallo morning night uncle.

update and improved

the day my camera phone pangsehd
me.. and died.. OH MY POOR PHONE.
DIE ALR. but the pic damn cute can?
not the one with me w/o make up!

2006-12-20T01:06:00.000+08:00

[the soundbelow: Cassie - Long way 2 go]

yes, im actually addicted to that song.
-shivers.

anyways, i just came back from the date with arwin.
zomg la.... he's different...in a more.. old sorta way?
i swear, he puts the word MAN into gentleman.

ladies, if u wanna date him.. be my guest, u'll
be in for a real treat. (:

started out cheesey, twas raining like fuck and he
wanted t take a cab to my place to fetch me. WTF right?
actually.. not so wtf la. back to where i was... met him
in town, and again, RAINING LIKE FUCK.

mother of biznatch!

he was so...uhm.. nice? that he actually
let me hold on to his arm and hand when we were climbing
up and down the stairs cuz it was raining so fucked-uppity-ly
that the floor was either

a) flooded
b) flooded
c) slippery

YAH LA. ok, anyways.. he paid for everything.. that for me
was a first time (even for band aids for my blisters).
yeah, the date ended great. i enjoyed it.
for once, i was actually treated like a lady... and i thanked him
for that... I KNOW, CHEESEY. but he was sweet, really.

OH, AND I MET ERIKA SHIMADA.
she's friendly.. oh, and gorgeous pls ;)
if you are reading this, WE HAVE TO HAVE TO
GO OUT.. meet up for drinks or smth. wee!

me like..

HAHA.

OK, BUBYE.

oh, and dont have pictures..
if he and i go on another date,
i'll post some up k?

yah!

THAILAND land of.. smiles?

2006-12-16T16:48:00.000+08:00

SA WAR DE KARP!

HONG NAM (toilet)

SAME SAME

CHECK BIN (the bill)

ok, thats abt all that i learnt in thailand
but yeah.. it was enough for me to go arnd
and find my way :P

friggin "graduation" song playing at the background
and i cant rmbr what i wanna write here on my blog
apart from the pictures.. soooo uhhh...k...

thailand was alright.. not much of a culture shock
because it was like a mix of singapore and philippines..
the ppl there were friendly like that of phils.. while
some were damn grumpy like working sg ppl.
the surroundings too resembled phils but there
was a tinge of modernisation.. like sg.

i like car rides and pictures of roads.. i dont know why.

and those people too werent lying when they said shopping was
good over there. you get to bargain and find just abt
anything in that place... OH, I SOO HAVE GOT TO TELL U
GUYS THAT THE BOYZ OVER THERE ARE........-drools..
the trannies were awesome.. and the girls there are good
lookin.. but dont know how t dress well..uhm....opps?
speak for myself, like i was dressed well :P

see what i mean?

toured arnd the place with my uncle vic playing host.
stayed at his place and went arnd with his lead. man, i
didnt know he cud speak thai... didnt know how we wudev
managed without him. we went around malls, to tourist
attractions.. but sadly.. no beaches and red light districts.

his humble abode, ignore the sheet-less bed

i tell u ah, im damn dissappointed.

big wanky thing was that family arguments wud sprout outta
no where as well.. i hated it.. friggin one week of arguing
and i cudnt get outta the house least i get lost. twas tres annoying.
it was also damn embarrassing cuz my uncle is like.. total
god abiding man.. and im..well.. weird.... was awful...

beautiful...i wish i had a better camera

good part of the trip i guess.. was just spending time with
the family.. although it wasnt much of a banger.. but yeah..
i'll just take it in my stride and say that at least it was time
spent with family.

dad sponsored shopping.. which was the only "good" thing that
happened.. and i got asked out by two guys in thailand. yeah...
kind of a shock for me as well because..

1) i didnt look my best.. think pimply and a lions mane
2) khaki shorts and tees? aroused, no?
3) minimal make up.. just eye liner.
4) peeling skin from tanning with lynn.

yeah. but even with all that.. two asked me out. one was a loser
and the other was a real good experience. LOL. u wudnt believe this
but i "caught his eye" when i came out from the..of all places, the
TOILET, FRIGGIN HONG NAM.

he works at MBK in sizzler. i walked pass, and he .. yeahh..
had t walk pass again..i thought he was psycho or there was
smth on my pants la! WTH. then when i had to fetch my brother from
the internet cafe, he and his friend waved at me and made hand
gestures for my telephone number... or so i thought.

later i walked over (kinda pissed cuz i was still clueless what they
were doing, i thought they were making fun of me!) and gestured..
"what?". and they tried talking through the glass panel but it was
sound proof. LOL.

FRIGGIN HILARIOUS K.

i looked damn dumb cuz i was "huh? what? no!! -hand gesture."
and he was like speaking in thai and his friends were doing
hand signs.. *points* *hearts* *points*. till i sorta gave up
decifering it and his female friend took a piece of paper
and wrote "he wants your telephone number"

LOL! HAHAHAAHAHAHA. IMPOSSIBLE OK.
THIS SORTA THINGS DONT HAPPEN! AND ODD ENUF, IT HAPPENED ON
THE DAY BEFORE TAKE OFF. ):

he's sooo hawt la. a goatee... nice funky hair.. ):

ahyah. he's tonnes of miles away
nvm nvm... still can.. im alright. lol.
i'll be able to psyche myself out of it and
tell myself that what goes on in thailand, STAYS IN THAILAND.

so i guess i'll let the pictures speak for themselves alright?
you tell me how do you think my trip went. hah!

p.s.
when u go to thailand..
u'll see loadsa pictures of their king
and i counted every single one of them
from the day i stepped unto thailand
and flew my fat ass off...

king count: 164!

HAHA!

2006-12-09T21:23:00.000+08:00

[the soundbelow: Amber pacific - Gone so young]

been in thailand for afew days now..
and uh... yuh... people didnt lie when they
said that shopping is really good here..

friendly people too, both ang mohs and
locals. but i reckon the ang mohs want discounts
and the locals wanna sell stuff. :D

i like tuktuks and car rides.. -nods
and ZOMG luh, the weather is friggin
retarded... warghhhhhhhh... u are like
damn suay if u get the old taxis with
wanky air cons...

best get the candy colored ones or the
big rednblue ones. they are "newer"
and have better air cons... oh, i heart
air cons.

p.s.
some locals are hawt.
plus the trannies.
AHAHAHAHA.

MAD!

i like (:

UPDATE WHEN I GET BACK LUH.

2006-12-07T12:29:00.000+08:00

[the soundbelow: Guns and Roses - november rain]

THAILANDIZZLE for rizzle.

flights at 6ish and we're leaving the house at 3.
i dont feel excited or gitterish at all.. somethings odd
and out of place. i hope nothing bad happens to
me or anyone on the way there and back again.

but before anything bad happens.. can u keep a secret?

LOL!
bye!!!
miss me!!!
<3

2006-12-03T21:56:00.000+08:00

ALERT: long entry, quite alot of pictures (enuf t lag u la..).

DAYS BEFORE THAILAND...
me, ilyana (thats inclusive of dhan , marc and "abi-normal" wan) and lynn went to

1) SUNTEC & TOYS R US

on saturday, ily (w/ dhan, "abi-normal"wan and marc)
and i went t do what we do best.. R.O.C.
resulting into becoming a new fan of local music.
comic strip is DA BOMB!

and for the record, i dont look good in pants k!!! see???
wah, look at the elmo picture?
ELMO LOOKS TRAUMATIZED. HAHAHA.
i didnt know i terrorize stuffed toys too... wah, power la brudder.

2) THE BEACH WITH LYNN

on tues, me and lynn went "tanning". we ended
up taking pictures in the end anyway. HEHE
plus i made friends with the owner of the bar bora bora
down at palawan beach. did i mention that i
totally love friendly people? (:
thats setan and the "owner". AHAHA, so cute pls!

if you're wondering why there arnt any pictures of me
and lynn, well... lynn and i wanted t edit em before putting them
up, so u guys have t wait aight?
also, lynn has got to be one of the few people i find
awesome. yes, AWESOME. eat it and die if u disagree. pfft!

oh oh!!! i rmbred!! vivo has this animal thing, and we saw
the cutest pups EVARRRRR.. a chow chow and some psycho
posessed siberian husky with white wolf eyes... me like ;)

3) STARBUCKS IN WISMA WITH DVDS!

ily and me were bored so we brought our butts t town and
watched dvds while sippin on some joe. yes, starbucks people!
haha, the funniest thing happened that day.. actually.. its tday la...
but see that lil paper there? well...
lets put it this way, i cant complain anymore that i didnt get asked out
before la.

AND I THOUGHT IT WAS A FRIGGIN JOKE.
i asked ilyana "YOU'RE KIDDING RIGHT?" like about
five times straight. LOL!
and the DUDE was sweet enough to give two drinks on the house.
so sweet... and this is ilyana with her "trophies"
tell you ah, COFFEE OVERLOAD LA!

and before i forget... say hello to bryan biznatch! (:

ahyah. thailand....
hopefully it'll be a safe trip and a new experience.
is it just me.. or do i like what i cant get?

"righty tighty, letfy loosey.... oh hey boog!"

2006-12-02T00:24:00.000+08:00

i need someone to replace jaysean.

its 12.25
im grumpy and bored as it is.
im kind of lazy to go for the interview
tomorrow at soup spoon. but i reckon
i should drag my butt there.

i really dont know la.
ARGHHHH.
oh, and im so jobless..
its not even funny anymore.

everyone's just so.. boring.
really!!!
no one wants to hang out..
no one wants to club...
no one has money...
no one wants to go beaching...
no one wants to gym...
no one wants to celebrate...

WHAT EVER HAPPENED TO THE
PLANS AFTER O's MUHFUCKERS!!!
FUCK LA. IM LIKE FUCKING PISSED LA.
ARGHHHHHH.

and im FUCKN DATELESS.
ME NO LIKE!

2006-11-29T23:47:00.000+08:00

when u need love too much
cuz we are not accepted all the time..
and when love is someone's priority
we tend to get frustrated at not receiving that love
the people u meet.. the maturity level of the people u meet..
is determined by you yourself...
the higher you take yourself in the
social system the better people you will meet
ur pitying yourself abit too much
u must learn to manage your life erika
because if u are doing it.. u will be able to control ur needs
and wants... in accordance to reality...
thats what i call managing urself
ur needs are controlling u
u are not controlling urself
u gotta take a step back.. open your mind..
look at others. if you think you're special..
you think you're the only one who is "stuck"...
First of all, you're extremely self-conscious..
of who you are.. and the image you portray to people..
what they perceive of you as well..
you have this urge to be significant in society..
this has inherent negative impacts on you as a person..
look at yourself.. and the position you have put yourself into..
sometimes u just gotta take things easy in life... really.
you just hate urself for being fat.
and that's like so fcukin common.
but people learn to take things easy.
they face rejection too. but they're dealign with it.
why? why are you not? why they are?
yes of coz... just to the ppl u care about.
u want a good image. ur self-conscious...
subconsciously you're OVERLY self-conscious..
u wanna be hot. u wanna be sexy. u wanna be wanted.
and that's not easy, erika
u can't understand urself until u just stop still..
press the pause button..
and look at ur situation. you are just Killing urself..
no1's killing u right now..
u dun understand urself?
U DO... u know u do..
u just need to accept the fact that u need to loosen up
cuz of yer attitude .. you may have a sexy personality... yes its sexy
but its not independent
you dont think deep
get out of ur body now.. imagine urself crying over ur poor fat body.
get into third person view...
imagine yourself as Oprah winfrey... she loves her life doesnt she..
she loves her job.. shes not hot.. shes not sexy...
imagine u as oprah winfrey looking down at yourself...
what wud u think of this girl named erika..
whining about all these things in life..
u really think shes really trying to get somewhere? Come on.
strengthen ur attitude
ur esteem
ure courage
ure vision
ur mission
ur purpose
you dont have anything sorted out.
ur just all out to look hot and sexy
when u have urself sorted out...
when u have a reason for ur existence..
u know what you stand for.. u know where ur going..
u know what youre gonna achieve..
u know where you will stand in the social structure one day..
you know you can handle people..
u have confidence in your attitude...
you have a strong personality and self-representation
which overcomes your undesirable appearance..
...... if you have all these....
erika u will be a totally different person...
the way i see it. im telling u... heart-to-heart...
i can see the way out for u but u think im rattling the same old thing
and u've heard all these before.. and u know all these
u have no aims la. no goals. no achievement-schedule.
you're going nowhere in life..
have your life planned out.. what is your passion...
that's why i always tell my sec sch frens...
plan ur life now. ur ambitions
it sets everything.. ur behaviour.. ur attitude..
and ur resilience in everything u do
if you dont like ur life to be planned out..
be prepared to go in circles...
Erika... your youth is your potential pool...
youre wasting your potential right now
if you dont have the money.. u need the knowledge..
and u need to follow the education system
too bad sg's education system is rigid
so if u cant adapt... u cant push urself
then ull just fall erika
and that is social darwinism in practice
do you understand? if you can accept this ... at heart.
u will be a much more straightforward person in terms of your thinking
but if you are resistant to change.. to shaping yourself...
then i'm sorry. because other people are succeeding
life is a process... it is a journey..
you cannot set on a journey without planning your route
and what u have to do to get there... do u agree
imagine not planning anything... ur going nowhere.
u'll end up just another redundant human.. wasting our resources..
u know it. but you're not following the principle
so ask urself.. now what can you do... i can't advise u on this..
its ur life.. u decide.
and if you wanna really see how open-minded i am.. then hear this.
Your life is a journey. some people have plans for them.
exact plans. they know what they want to be.
they have a purpose. when that purpose is broken.
they have lost all that they have fought for.
Look at hitler, he lost everything he fought for.
he killed himself.. knowing he had lost his own battle.
Likewise... if you can't find a purpose or vision in your life..
if you're really getting nowhere..
and you really don't want to get anywhere.
it's no harm just killing yourself. it's really your choice.
your existence is your choice. That's how open i really am.
towards anything. if you wanna kill yourself go ahead..
if you wanna keep trying, then keep working hard... and breaking sweat
we as a human race need people who exert influence.. take us somewhere.
we don't want people dragging the population
down with them as they tumble under their own foundation.
we want a mature society.
if you think being slim is all that life is about.
then go ahead.. dedicate your life to being slim.
all you will be is a guy-magnet.. and you have no idea
what hard lives guy-magnets have... the kinda guys u meet...
it is a source of the problem...
and you must know how to put a plug on that source..
its like a bottle of toxic waste pouring down on you..
like I said. figure out how to snap out of that mindset.
if you can't then you just suck.
you have a weak character. that much I can say.
i won't offer you any sympathy.
because i respect the many people who have tried so hard to do this...
and at the same time working on their lives! their purpose and so on..
it takes just strength. its really that simple.. stop trying to explain urself
u have a nice character. pleasant.. inviting.. fun-loving.
but you are dependent.. weak.. easily affected.. easily floundered...
you have a terribly weak foundation
so are u gonna run 20km or try change ur character...
make a choice. i would say...either u change ur character..
or u do both. rather than run 20km alone

ASK YOURSELF why you dont care.. dont ask me...
im not u... the simplest answer i can give you.. is that youre stupid.
the underlying reasons u have to find out urself
be an independent critical thinker.. a logical thinker..
a forward-minded visionary..
these are all values we die to learn.
i bet you dont give a shit. you'll just say "i know all those"...
trust me everyone knows. the difference is whether u can learn them

NOW THE WHOLE WORLD KNOWS.

so before you tell me you're sick of my
emo-ness or just tired of being around
my .. whats that word... "boring" side.
i should tell u, i was sick of it before
you or anyone else.

im like that because i think too much
and im still tryn to get out of it.

2006-11-27T18:51:00.000+08:00

[the sound below: +44 - when your heart stops beating]

HOLLA PEOPLE :D

say hello to my spastic face!
thats me doing this..

O_o

anyways, last saturday the fly
went to plaza sing where we spotted
a really gnarly fight between a china
woman and a sg lady. talk abt embarrassing.
the sg lady was so drama shouting "help help"
which obviously sounded damnnn fake fyi!
while the china lady was getting her
kungfu chikidy china chikin style on.

oh, and i love spotlight for the awesome halloween
costumes and funny decorative thingies that u..
and everyone else can play with. esp their wigs!

tday however, we went over to t-to-the-indays place
for a visit. yep. we usually get really good food there
and get t watch dvds the whole day, so thats the plus
point.....cept getting clawed and chewed at by brianna.

uhm, and im really sorry for the lack of pictures.
i actually have tonnes lying around on my computer
and im just TOO LAZY to upload em on flickr and
putting them on imagestation. its hard sifting which
ones u like and which ones ud want to delete.

i get attached to my photographs ):

ahyah.. here's what u missed.

a FOURSOME (:
HAHA. LOOK AT LAILA'S FACE!

the starbucks raid we had aft Os

my curled up hair for the day

and the really awesome car "show" i went to
with so-so chinese models, and really hawt lambo
models...who were aussie. omg, i think i side
ang mohs too much alr. pfft

ok luh, i'll upload the rest on imagestation or smth.
p.s. im deleting old pictures from it and replacing
it with new ones. so the names are still the same (:

BOOBYE!

2006-11-24T21:49:00.000+08:00

since MOS, my biological clock is
screwed. its so screwed, its not
funny anymore when i wake up
close to night and think its
morning.

AHH.

ahyah, can la. and the weird thing
is that i keep thinking at the back
of my mind that O's are still arnd
the corner....when its not..

bite me.
oh, and i applied for starbucks at
a different outlet again. it went
well this time,i was lucky to score
and interview.. yy also scored
an interview with soup spoon. mmm...
fried mars bar.

2006-11-22T20:22:00.000+08:00

surge at mos yesterday.
was alright, met up with the peeps.
got pissed off by alvin cuz he
came late, then he joined our que
and later acted as if it was cooler
to be late.

YA. FUCK U TOO :D

heh. enough of the hateration..
back to the event. uhm, loadsa ppl
were pissed off that the fight didnt
happen at all. i was at the top when
the match started and some of
the ppl left half way.

like, out of the place.
nvr came back. lamers!
and when i asked they sed
"stay for what? dont wanna dance
also.. see the match, like shit"
but the upside was seeing my
favourite djs sheik haikal and
daniel ong. WOOO!!

and yes, we rooted for DANIEL.
YA HEARD! i mean, come on.
girls, you gotta see that man shake
his stuff. eh, next time right..
no boxing match, at least make the
guys strip tease.. or wrestle..
piak nipples or smth la.
i liked the suggestion to make
the dudes slap each other. lol

god la. some ppl cudnt get in as well.
cuz they brought their damn ezlink.
so uh.. lesson learnt. heh.

good part throughout the whole night
was that the music was good... crowd
was ok. over all, can luh. pass.

i sound damn stupid saying this but
there were loadsa guys, quite a number
of chicks. ALL WERE HAWT, from fat
mommas to skinny babes. BUT I DIDNT
SEE ANY GUYS MAKING A MOVE
ON THEM. i swear la.

vehhhh vehhh few, close to none.
come on ppl. socialise! not out to get
girls at least be friendly? na'mean?
abit of a culture shock from what
i was used to in the states, phils
and some other parties in sg.
or maybe its just the age factor.

the lamest part was the truth that
those guys who came in search for a
vagina, only got em on the dancefloor.

TALK ABOUT WEAK.

ok. im off.
oh, and i met loadsa new ppl and
everyone was friendly.
hello to mabel, the gays, the two
friendly chicks at the mrt station
and random ppl on the dancefloor.
lol. thanks to kenny as well who
organised this event.

holla people!

2006-11-21T00:45:00.000+08:00

[the soundbelow: lenny kravitz - it aint over till its over]

red head and over os.
oh, and introducing... DE, ily and LAILA.
ish ;)

my sexay biatchs

2006-11-17T18:14:00.000+08:00

WAZZUP BIZZZNAATCCCHH!

ignore that. anyways.. this week
was succesfull,yep.
i applied for starbucks and im
getting an interview on thursday.

say it with me,

N.E.R.V.O.U.S!

ok la, not really. just a lil
excited cuz i dno what they're gonna
ask me and stuff.

apart from that, if i cant get in..
i wanna apply for rastafari AGAIN
and maybe some hot spots in town.
whichever.

now thats over and done with..
i have to count my expenses.. here
are the list of things i HAVE bought
and what i hvnt yet. ):

what i have
M.A.C cosmetics - $50
Forever 21 top - $63
Forever 21 scarf - $11
UrbanHair haircut - $34

extras
Gymming - round abt $5
Food - $7
Ez-fuckn-link - $10 and more

what i want
gold greek sandals - $30
black/white/tan cargos - $40
more shirts - $50
curls? - $80
hilights - $80
(omg, i need to bargain luh)

i'll get it later
jimmy choo heels
more MAC makeup
bondage pants
pretty tops
hair repair kit

2006-11-13T20:08:00.000+08:00

[the soundbelow: Gary V. - Natutulog pa ng diyos]

amg, my music's gone screetchy on me.
uh.. yea, i did the base of my hair but
unfortch, it wasnt enough.

YES, i have massive hair. and like cami
from laguna beach.. my hair's so big cuz
its full of secrets.

lit paper wasnt so bad, syl b was hilarious..
the invigilator knew we were bored out of
our butts that he let us off fifteen minutes
earlier. he said he had never seen such
bored students in his life. welcome to nvss sir!

supah funny line of the day?
"Candidates, wake up! the exam has ended"

HAHAHA.
oh, and on sats, went with the fly to go to the
car exhibition or summat. was alright.. didnt
see any supah sexay cars apart from the usual
lambos and stuff. will upload pics soon'uff

the race queens in lambo beat the rest i tell ya.
talking abt race queens, vase khai yy and i went
intensive gymming on sunday.. played two games
of basketball as well. BOY WAS I BEAT.
yep. good day. good people.

now all i want is my highlights and im off t party.
O's are SOOO OVER

oh. update.
i hate it when friends become so
insensitive and when some just choose
to change out of no where thinking
it'll help somehow.

HEH. TALK ABOUT UNLUCKY!
what a downer to a great week planned.
side notes, math ans are out.. UGHHH

2006-11-08T20:13:00.000+08:00

[the sound below: Curses - bullet for my valentine]

i just find this pic beautiful (:

eh. emo songs lately.. whatever
you call those things nowadays.
uhm.. O's have been good to me
so far.

cept for the math, and the careless
mistakes.

its worth a "wah lao"

uh yea, can i like, not take maths?

2006-10-31T14:17:00.000+08:00

SURGE @ M.O.S.

21st NOV.

PARTAYE right after Os, people!

YES, its a party with an extra aye.
so you know its goin down. ;)
and we gon'be there!

holler at me people!

ohshizz, O levels. dont remind me
-bigbigbigfrown.

2006-10-26T20:20:00.000+08:00

[the soundbelow: switchfoot - dare you to move]

my mind's like..giddy.
dizzy, fo shizzle.

went "mugging". geez. i hvnt
mugged in three days... well..
i did.. but in lil bits.

uhm. vivo'd with the gang.
fit bought her stuff... i didnt.
so damn depressing i tell you
first.

uhh.. ya.
went mugging just now also.
saw vase,khai and laila.
boy do i miss khai and vase,
LOVES EM!
and with laila arnd, its always
fun. yep.

more mugging less
dragging.

ya. geddit? doya doya?

2006-10-24T12:39:00.000+08:00

[the soundbelow: Augustana - Hotel roosevelt]

everybody's changing and
nothing feels the same.

Hooray to what doesnt feel like
a birthday.

2006-10-21T13:00:00.000+08:00

[The sound below: Madonna - just like a prayer]

i woke up feeling itchy for fashion
so ive decided, i like these few designer brands.

Narciso Rodriguez

Heatherette

Agent provocateur

Roberto Cavalli

thas abt it i guess.. supposed t be studying now.
but hey, i need a fashion binge once in awhile (:

2006-10-19T18:35:00.000+08:00

"how unfortch.. ur humour's lost its touch"

pretend it doesnt hurt..
just lie your way out today..
and when u complain
..you go insane
just watch me walk away.